Every Sunday, I engage in a lively conversation with a fellow Church-goer about his employment. My friend works with troubled youth but he does it with horses, something he calls equine therapy. I’m fascinated with horses and really enjoy speaking with my friend about his experiences with the youth, leadership, and what horses can teach us about how to lead others and affect change in an organization.
Because of confidentiality agreements, it is difficult for outsiders to come into the facility. I mentioned to him that I would love to spend time learning from the horses and, especially, have the horse teach me about how to lead with clarity, authenticity, intention, courage, intuition and focus — clearly all things that I still sorely lack.
In a moment of Hansei
I believe that my heart is in the right place — it is still sufficiently soft. Yet, I make mistakes that impact other people negatively. In moments of self-awareness, I realize this and feel so badly afterwards.
I have been on my own since I was 17. Has that difficult upbringing and time as a troubled youth baggage that I still carry with me? Is it something else?
I’m really looking forward to spending more time with my friend, his horse, to help me learn more about myself and to help me improve on my still many character flaws.